Single
Okay, so I haven't written in quite some time and this is whats going on. I'm single. Did I say it correctly? I have been so busy with work, work is good. Family back and forth and back and forth, like a revolving door. With the never ending chaos--I did find time to date--so I went on a date, with a surgeon....ugh, one date and he loves me. So of course, I continue to date, only to realize that this is hard. It is very difficult to keep company with someone who is tooooo good looking. This is where I learned some valuable stuff.
A guy who has a hot ride, a hot face, a hot job is just a regular person. He is more lonely than you think, he really wants to settle down, and is looking to commit. His good looks mean nothing. We talked about this. He also questioned my looks, okay, so its not my fault I look like a walking blow job--this is called genes. I inherited my looks and ways from my parents. The real deep down me is the opposite of what I appear to be. He said it is the same for him. He is the opposite of the car, the looks, the job. So yup, I scratch my head and actually feel that I can relate.
Now, its not nice to prejudge anyone and I freakin hate it when people assume things about me as well. So I felt the surgeon was only looking for sex and ugh, its not happening---so after my insinuations and accusations all a bit less of having a knife to his throat demanding to know what he wants from me---I get a reply that is weird---because I am nice--homely--good hearted---hmmmmm...wtf? confused, baffled...I come to realize that there are men out there that are just like me....I learned that I shouldn't be so quick to judge and assume all men want is sex..just because H was this way does not mean everyone is....What I did learn was that good exist in all, regardless of looks, car or job---an ugly guy can screw you over---maybe one with a crap job or even someone unemployed---he can have a crap car and still be a jerk---so even if he has his act together---has it all--do not rule him out--in the end he comes from the same place that I do--holds tightly to the things most important to us--which is family--honesty--loyalty---and just good old traditional ways which stand out in a place where I can't find it, especially in my job---no where to be found---in this lost generation of lost ideals, lost values, NO tradition...and crappy lifestyles, with NO respect--not even for the one you're with-wtf--not what we saw in our parents---not what we know--not what we know we need to survive another generation or two---so being single now---I learned something else---he can have it all---but to fall in love with someone and connect on that deep level is soooo hard--and it didn't help that he didn't love the same movies that I do----just another lesson---that deep bonds are so hard to make....... as well as break.....Staying single til the bond man comes....riding up on his white horse---the one who was made for me....the one that I was made for....that only comes once in lifetime---maybe he's having trouble with the saddle---
A guy who has a hot ride, a hot face, a hot job is just a regular person. He is more lonely than you think, he really wants to settle down, and is looking to commit. His good looks mean nothing. We talked about this. He also questioned my looks, okay, so its not my fault I look like a walking blow job--this is called genes. I inherited my looks and ways from my parents. The real deep down me is the opposite of what I appear to be. He said it is the same for him. He is the opposite of the car, the looks, the job. So yup, I scratch my head and actually feel that I can relate.
Now, its not nice to prejudge anyone and I freakin hate it when people assume things about me as well. So I felt the surgeon was only looking for sex and ugh, its not happening---so after my insinuations and accusations all a bit less of having a knife to his throat demanding to know what he wants from me---I get a reply that is weird---because I am nice--homely--good hearted---hmmmmm...wtf? confused, baffled...I come to realize that there are men out there that are just like me....I learned that I shouldn't be so quick to judge and assume all men want is sex..just because H was this way does not mean everyone is....What I did learn was that good exist in all, regardless of looks, car or job---an ugly guy can screw you over---maybe one with a crap job or even someone unemployed---he can have a crap car and still be a jerk---so even if he has his act together---has it all--do not rule him out--in the end he comes from the same place that I do--holds tightly to the things most important to us--which is family--honesty--loyalty---and just good old traditional ways which stand out in a place where I can't find it, especially in my job---no where to be found---in this lost generation of lost ideals, lost values, NO tradition...and crappy lifestyles, with NO respect--not even for the one you're with-wtf--not what we saw in our parents---not what we know--not what we know we need to survive another generation or two---so being single now---I learned something else---he can have it all---but to fall in love with someone and connect on that deep level is soooo hard--and it didn't help that he didn't love the same movies that I do----just another lesson---that deep bonds are so hard to make....... as well as break.....Staying single til the bond man comes....riding up on his white horse---the one who was made for me....the one that I was made for....that only comes once in lifetime---maybe he's having trouble with the saddle---
posted by vita86lover at 6:09 PM
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