Ugghh, I can't....

What a horrible, horrible Tuesday. So this psycho actually showed up..late of course..for work...how everyone whispered all around..she looked like the biggest dirt bag on the planet...are you kidding me...talk about rolling out of bed...I mean, you're pale, bony and gross to begin with..which means you need to wake the fuck up early and put some makeup on...go to the mall, they'll teach you everything..so this douchebag...balls..asked me a question today..now she knows to stay the fuck away from me...she's been warned...there was no reason for me to have this greaseball in front of me, asking me something....me in my black thick turtle neck, grey slacks, high heels of course and my big Grey Benetton fur coat.....yeah, I know I'm a fuck....now, without even raising my eyes to her, i answered..u know what, fuck you..thats right, you don't deserve my eye contact..i will treat you like the slime that you are...with that, I freaked, went straight to the boss and lost it...I told her this is it...I will walk out...keep that flaky bimbo far the fuck away from me....she was shocked, shocked that she came near me and asked me a question...that fucking nerdy mouse of a pathetic woman...I lost it today...i am so cool..but when things bother me..watch out...stay off my path...so I told the boss...I was frightened...all nerves so far this week...I have the worst knot in my stomach, pulling up to that building...knowing someone is watching me..I am just too nervous...I have a horrible feeling..something has me so uneasy...I can't explain it.....and now, on top of it...2 days, this broad is out sick...and I must be subjected to a question from her....no not now..not ever..bad timing...so I freaked pretty bad....I feel bad now..well, not really..but my nerves are shot...I am too nice...but having a very strong personality...I'm sorry, go kill yourself, just stay the fuck away from me...On top of this..my girlfriend was having her reports read...guess what..totally clean...no cancer...nothing...her breasts are fine...Thank God...Bets...how I love you...how I value you in my life...you're my girl......I was on edge for you today...how I would be broken if those reports were positive....I never want anything to happen to you...u my nigga, I love you so much Bets........so the highlight of my day....aaaahhh..my lover...how sweet he is...to get that call from him, makes me melt...oh how I speak to him and it all goes away..so tonight..he was quite attentive.....someone's opening up...and me...well I'm always open and honest...so I told him honestly just how muchhhhhhhh he does it for me...so my evening was well...thanks H..mmwwwaa....you just do it for me darling...its like you just knew I needed you today.....so I am going to bed early...hope the snow melts....and I hope my nerves don't get the better of me.....I hate being this way.....I really do....