Lonely Again..

So its been good few days...I am really feeling this distance thing...I hate it...I can't believe he will be away from me this long...this sucks, it really freakin sucks..I realize now what I absolutely love the most about him. He pays so much attention to me. Okay, I just may be a bit spoiled. But one thing I have to say, from young, I have always responded better to those who gave me lots of attention, affection, phone calls, time, etc. I know some girls may find this annoying..but I never did..the ex was pretty much up my ass, now that I think about it...and now I have to say, I can understand what made me fall for this man who is so far from me...the endless attention he showers me with. This mixed with his sweet words is more than enough to make me absolutely nuts, insane for him. So I hate people, never was one for attention from others..spent the last 20yrs getting unwarranted attention and I guess, when you're used to be honked at, screamed at on the street, whistled at by men..your whole life..eh, it becomes no big deal...when I was young, oh my tight jeans...this ass crashed his car into another car..yea I felt bad..but it wasn't my fault...so yeah, being pulled over...cars slowing down to drive at the same speed you're going, just for some jerk to try to flirt..eh, never worked for me....never did a thing for me...never bothered..it was always there...what I do crave is the undidvided attention from the one man who has me..who has captured my attention..who has my full attention...so I'm missing him, missing the attention...missing his attention....God, I hope he continues to give it to me the way he does....... or else that would be the 1 thing that would leave me lonely...my need for his attention....God, I miss him....