Showers

Bridal Showers, Baby Showers, whatever, they're all fucking boring. The most boring thing on the planet. So yesterday, one of the most beautiful days in a long time, I had to spend indoors for like 5 freakin hours...at a boring shower. Talk about wanting to hang yourself. I saw so many girls I had known from like 10-15 years ago. It was nice meeting up with them, they're all married, all miserable. I would have to say, out of about 60 women whom I have known for the last 20 years of my life...I was shocked. Shocked and in a state of disbelief that so many people are just so different, so changed. I have to say, I'm blessed. I really feel blessed. Now, they all know the ex, so I can't even begin to explain how happy I was to fill them in on the fact that I'm still single and hearing how lucky I am. Boring crap about this ones kid and that ones kid...ugh go away..enough....I don't think its cute...its annoying...blah, blah, blah...To hear that I haven't aged as much as others, probably because I have eliminated bullshit from life for many years. There is a tremendous difference between being happy and being content. This is what I learned yesterday, there is a distinct difference. Now, about these showers, yes, I took all of the notes...who gave what..it was either play secretary and get involved or kill myself. These things are so boring..they should be eliminated. Now let's say, God forbid, I was to get married, I would not have a shower. I would just invite, maybe 10 people to my wedding..that's it... just an invitation to my wedding...an exclusive small wedding, very fancy, posh...horse and carriage as my sister had...with the violins and the doves....Plaza Hotel...none of this fifi fufu bullshit..no shower..and since I have not tortured all of the feamles in my life with my shower, they will give an extra special gift for the wedding since I saved them from a whole day of pure torture....all I could think about was how much I could be doing at home, with my parents in town..oh..its been great..I have a houseful all day...walked into a houseful, which was the good part of finally coming home...Then from there.....chaos..love chaos...the only thing...I must keep my nieces and nephews away from my computer...I come home and I just don't understand how they can all be so involved in playing some stupid game...they get into everything...I wish they were still babies...they have all grown up too fast...I want them little again...where they want to sit on the floor and play a game...not to go on the computer and be in their own little world...I don't know...they know everything...to well...just wish they were able to fit completely in my arms again. I think that has to be the most amazing thing about them as babies...that I was once able, with just 2 arms, to hold them entirely in my arms....One thing I did learn from the boring shower from hell...I don't want to be married, don't want babies...I am very happy in my life....I want a nice male companion...nothing serious...I learned this...umm..2 weeks too late...but what can I do....I'm sure H is probably so involved with someone else by now...he's probably shopping for a ring or a place for a boring shower.....