Month of May
There is something about May that I've always loved--the change of weather--school is almost over--the flowers--the colors---I just love May---the month of Mary--I can still remember from my youth--Oh Mary, we crown thee with blossoms today, Queen of the angels, Queen of the May--how's that for memory--or the nuns that just about beat into your brain---
May is refreshing---for me--it will mark the point of a new beginning--nope, I'm serious--a new and improved me---finally being bold--to take control of the things that I want in this life---I do not need someone to complete me--it would've been nice to meet someone for company sake--someone cool enough to come over, watch a movie, cook together, listen to music, hang out at the park--yup--I just love the park---but we all have seen what has happened in this last year--I swear its easier to ask for a million dollars---I do not have the time nor patience to deal with these men, who have their heads up their ass--nope, I'd rather be alone--so being bold--I'm going to go back to this place where it was just me---not looking--and then somehow finding---I'm going to trust fate--not looking--not making any effort---having that what will be, will be attitude---so I've cleaned out the closets--now cleaning out my life a bit more--removal of clutter that serves zero purpose--not having my time wasted on trivial matters, trivial people--nothing---the goal is to get up the nerve to go into the city by myself and walk around--on the train--if i can do this--I can do anything---am I ready--yes--and maybe, just maybe--I might meet someone the old fashioned way--where the physical exists first---it worked once before--maybe its time to give it another chance--no more computer dates--I am convinced--there is something too superficial, too unknown about it--its not for me---so wish me luck--and pray I reach my goal--cant stand being so trapped anymore..
I swear alka made this song just for me--I watch it so much-the place-its so familiar--its the place I want to go to--the place he will know--part 2 of my goal...one step at a time---
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42K126nOSn4
May is refreshing---for me--it will mark the point of a new beginning--nope, I'm serious--a new and improved me---finally being bold--to take control of the things that I want in this life---I do not need someone to complete me--it would've been nice to meet someone for company sake--someone cool enough to come over, watch a movie, cook together, listen to music, hang out at the park--yup--I just love the park---but we all have seen what has happened in this last year--I swear its easier to ask for a million dollars---I do not have the time nor patience to deal with these men, who have their heads up their ass--nope, I'd rather be alone--so being bold--I'm going to go back to this place where it was just me---not looking--and then somehow finding---I'm going to trust fate--not looking--not making any effort---having that what will be, will be attitude---so I've cleaned out the closets--now cleaning out my life a bit more--removal of clutter that serves zero purpose--not having my time wasted on trivial matters, trivial people--nothing---the goal is to get up the nerve to go into the city by myself and walk around--on the train--if i can do this--I can do anything---am I ready--yes--and maybe, just maybe--I might meet someone the old fashioned way--where the physical exists first---it worked once before--maybe its time to give it another chance--no more computer dates--I am convinced--there is something too superficial, too unknown about it--its not for me---so wish me luck--and pray I reach my goal--cant stand being so trapped anymore..
I swear alka made this song just for me--I watch it so much-the place-its so familiar--its the place I want to go to--the place he will know--part 2 of my goal...one step at a time---
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42K126nOSn4
posted by vita86lover at 5:45 PM
2 Comments:
i still cant believe you disbelieved me. me and my cousin share the blog, and i'm just surprised that you didn't even let me explain for a moment....?
I think that I will join your journey and let true love find me instead of looking online where the danger lurks. It seems very difficult to trust. So it's time to move on from the lies...you know who you are...
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