Lies, Lies, and more Lies

Okay, this is where the game is getting too dangerous, the walls are closing in...I want out...that's it, I'm not playing anymore. I don't like this game, there aren't any rules. So this dating game, I swear it has to only be this way in New York. In this city of so many, the men have too much variety. The men have NO idea of what they want, in a woman, in this life, in themselves. I am convinced. Okay, women, its easy--I think its safe to say that we all want the same thing---an honest guy, a good guy--a loyal guy--prince charming, Mr. "I take care of everything" guy, an educated guy, a sweet guy, a loving guy. Your friends are so freakin jealous, they say--"Oh you are sooo lucky, he is a great guy" Nope, that guy I met, the summer of 88---he is no more--had the Benx, the attitude, oh and whats that word I'm searching for, respect, yup he had that too. He was honest..couldn't care less what you thought--you--everyone knew he was yours--OPP--and no one messed with other people's property. Guys were guys, they had tude, they valued you, bought you gifts for no reason. This does not exist today....
What we have today are lies...all lies...your head is so screwed up lies...this is the game that dating, having a boyfriend, one on one---has turned into...
Count me out, don't deal me in--I want out--out from lies, out from guys who date just to date, guys who don't value people, people's feelings....I don't want this...I guess its safe to say, you live and learn...
Things I've learned:
Trust no one
Guys want nothing today
Guys stand for nothing today
Guys lie---not little lies, big ass lies
Guys are not loyal
I believe in karma--it wil come back and bite you in your ass---
my life is not that bad
I'd rather be manless than have a guy who does not keep up--
I'd rather be alone than with someone who is not like me--honest and loyal---
I'm not into games---
It's not that bad---if I'm meant to meet someone, I have faith, it will happen--even if it means I have to get up the nerve to actually leave the house....
I love my family, love my parents, my sisters, my nieces, my nephews--everyone--
It's no that bad....
These are the things I've learned--I've also learned that it takes a lot to keep a friendship or relationship alive--it begins with honesty---I'm going back to the old school rules--if after 4 dates, he doesn't give me his jacket--he's not for me--he doesn't know what he wants--someone who doesn't deserve my love--doesn't deserve me...time to log off and I guess, go back out there--out there where I hate, where the evil lurks--somehow, I feel it might be safer than on here....pretty sad---there has to be more---there has to be someone decent, honest, and loyal out there....

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