Elevation
Saturday, September 02, 2006
So it's a beautiful rainy night. The type of weather that forces you to think of someone you know you shouldn't be thinking of. That person who is probably not thinking of you at this moment. If he was, then he would be with you, right now. It's best to believe that he is with another. This is the time that you create for yourself. You had a nice quiet evening, the way you like it. You took a long nice hot bath, slipped into your favorite silk robe, made a hot cup of tea, listened to the rain, listened to your favorite cd, and thought about life. So life, what and to whom does it bring us to? There comes that time when me meet someone or connect to someone who puts things into perspective for us. They come along at a time when we need to prioritize certain ideals. A time when we have remained stagnant and idle for too long, a time that we long to end and escape from but was just missing the push, the strong hand to guide you back, or should I say forward. When we can reexamine our long lost dreams and face them as they are tapped into and forced to resurface on us. So where are you headed in life? Why did your dreams die when a part of you died? Why did you allow this to happen for so long. This person just comes out of the clear crystal blue and makes you revisit these places. This person elevates you. This person has you on a high, even if you never experienced actually getting high, but makes you feel that same way when you've had a little too much to drink. You become elevated. Through elevation, you're able to see your paths. The fear has miraculously disappeared. You're in control now. You actually can see the many different paths that are all right in front of you. So many choices need to be made and now you may feel that time is not on your side. You have to set goals, set time limits. Rexamine all possibilities, all paths, be careful making your choices. You have chosen to live your life to the fullest, fuck the uncertainty. You realize now that there is nothing wrong with marriage, nothing wrong with having a child. You're talking to people, the risk takers. They're telling you that even if a marriage ends, at least you can say you married, as opposed to never taking that chance. You listen. You think. This person also tells you that happiness is in a blink of an eye. Meaning that there are so many things we can do in one day, have a fight, end a friendship, and in a blink of an eye, the very next morning, you can just wake up and set things straight for yourself, see things to the end, not leaving any stone unturned. This is coming from strength and not weakness and when coming from strength, anything and everything is possible. It's all about taking chances and risks. It's about being bold. Now, I am quite bold, but when it comes to myself, I don't take the risks or bold steps that i should. Being elevated is amazing. I will now make the attempt to go out every weekend. I will make the attempt to meet new and interesting men, I will take the best care of myself and treat myself to the best of everything. I will work less this year. I will not commit myself to more than I have to work wise. My elevation will take place in my personal life. I will give myself 3 months to be with someone who I can enjoy, who can enjoy me. Time is running out and there is a need to set time limits on the important things in life. I refuse to make my life about work. I will go somewhere during every holiday and concentrate on having a man in my life, not because i need him, but because i need to take the risk, i need to say, "I did it", "I did that", "I went there", "I know that now". I'm ready to take a chance again, ready to put my life on the line for you. You get what you want when you go for it and I'm ready to take a chance again with you...God, don't you just love Barry Manillow! Okay, I'll stop, and rojo, please don't read and comment, this is solely for me to reread and remain focused! Not you, don't wish to be rude, but i think it's best for me to meet men the old fashioned way, which means no more computer!! So perfect timing, My favorite feast ever is approaching, which is the San Gennaro in Little Italy, and having friends who own those quaint little restaurants there, I think this will be a good start for me! Italian men love me too much! Think it's time to get back to revisit the past and have a little fun, meet someone, give him more than the last one, and have him last another 12 years or more with me, no time left to be afraid. Making a relationship and commitment work is a lot of hard work. But what's easy in life? Nothing. I've learned that being responsible to someone, for someone, adding to someone's life and his happiness was work, but at the same time, it was easy work. It was fulfilling, it was when I was at my best. Not being selfish and not being alone. I did better in my life with a man on my arm, with a man, a real gangster type man who always put his hand out for mine. I was best being in the company of a man, having a man take the lead, having a man to depend on, having a man that listened and never left me for nothing. I was best laughing, being a goof, walking around and pulling up my skirt. I miss the craziness, the wild streak that comes out when you're with that person who makes you secure, that man who doesn't give you the question mark, but the man who's able to give you the period, the one who keeps you secure. I was best when I was watching a movie, cooking a meal, going to Atlantic City, enjoying people and making the time to do the things I wanted to do with people, as opposed to saying, "Ah Fuck it", I'll do it some other time, maybe next month, because next month never comes now. No time for regrets. No time to sit around being stagnant and content. God, I know i'll miss my peace and tanquility and boring but oh so comfortable routines. Talking like a big girl so reread and reread and just do it!! You have to elevate your life, your mind, your ways. You need a man!! You need a man!! You need a man!!
So it's a beautiful rainy night. The type of weather that forces you to think of someone you know you shouldn't be thinking of. That person who is probably not thinking of you at this moment. If he was, then he would be with you, right now. It's best to believe that he is with another. This is the time that you create for yourself. You had a nice quiet evening, the way you like it. You took a long nice hot bath, slipped into your favorite silk robe, made a hot cup of tea, listened to the rain, listened to your favorite cd, and thought about life. So life, what and to whom does it bring us to? There comes that time when me meet someone or connect to someone who puts things into perspective for us. They come along at a time when we need to prioritize certain ideals. A time when we have remained stagnant and idle for too long, a time that we long to end and escape from but was just missing the push, the strong hand to guide you back, or should I say forward. When we can reexamine our long lost dreams and face them as they are tapped into and forced to resurface on us. So where are you headed in life? Why did your dreams die when a part of you died? Why did you allow this to happen for so long. This person just comes out of the clear crystal blue and makes you revisit these places. This person elevates you. This person has you on a high, even if you never experienced actually getting high, but makes you feel that same way when you've had a little too much to drink. You become elevated. Through elevation, you're able to see your paths. The fear has miraculously disappeared. You're in control now. You actually can see the many different paths that are all right in front of you. So many choices need to be made and now you may feel that time is not on your side. You have to set goals, set time limits. Rexamine all possibilities, all paths, be careful making your choices. You have chosen to live your life to the fullest, fuck the uncertainty. You realize now that there is nothing wrong with marriage, nothing wrong with having a child. You're talking to people, the risk takers. They're telling you that even if a marriage ends, at least you can say you married, as opposed to never taking that chance. You listen. You think. This person also tells you that happiness is in a blink of an eye. Meaning that there are so many things we can do in one day, have a fight, end a friendship, and in a blink of an eye, the very next morning, you can just wake up and set things straight for yourself, see things to the end, not leaving any stone unturned. This is coming from strength and not weakness and when coming from strength, anything and everything is possible. It's all about taking chances and risks. It's about being bold. Now, I am quite bold, but when it comes to myself, I don't take the risks or bold steps that i should. Being elevated is amazing. I will now make the attempt to go out every weekend. I will make the attempt to meet new and interesting men, I will take the best care of myself and treat myself to the best of everything. I will work less this year. I will not commit myself to more than I have to work wise. My elevation will take place in my personal life. I will give myself 3 months to be with someone who I can enjoy, who can enjoy me. Time is running out and there is a need to set time limits on the important things in life. I refuse to make my life about work. I will go somewhere during every holiday and concentrate on having a man in my life, not because i need him, but because i need to take the risk, i need to say, "I did it", "I did that", "I went there", "I know that now". I'm ready to take a chance again, ready to put my life on the line for you. You get what you want when you go for it and I'm ready to take a chance again with you...God, don't you just love Barry Manillow! Okay, I'll stop, and rojo, please don't read and comment, this is solely for me to reread and remain focused! Not you, don't wish to be rude, but i think it's best for me to meet men the old fashioned way, which means no more computer!! So perfect timing, My favorite feast ever is approaching, which is the San Gennaro in Little Italy, and having friends who own those quaint little restaurants there, I think this will be a good start for me! Italian men love me too much! Think it's time to get back to revisit the past and have a little fun, meet someone, give him more than the last one, and have him last another 12 years or more with me, no time left to be afraid. Making a relationship and commitment work is a lot of hard work. But what's easy in life? Nothing. I've learned that being responsible to someone, for someone, adding to someone's life and his happiness was work, but at the same time, it was easy work. It was fulfilling, it was when I was at my best. Not being selfish and not being alone. I did better in my life with a man on my arm, with a man, a real gangster type man who always put his hand out for mine. I was best being in the company of a man, having a man take the lead, having a man to depend on, having a man that listened and never left me for nothing. I was best laughing, being a goof, walking around and pulling up my skirt. I miss the craziness, the wild streak that comes out when you're with that person who makes you secure, that man who doesn't give you the question mark, but the man who's able to give you the period, the one who keeps you secure. I was best when I was watching a movie, cooking a meal, going to Atlantic City, enjoying people and making the time to do the things I wanted to do with people, as opposed to saying, "Ah Fuck it", I'll do it some other time, maybe next month, because next month never comes now. No time for regrets. No time to sit around being stagnant and content. God, I know i'll miss my peace and tanquility and boring but oh so comfortable routines. Talking like a big girl so reread and reread and just do it!! You have to elevate your life, your mind, your ways. You need a man!! You need a man!! You need a man!!
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