Saturday, September 16, 2006

City Life

Sunday, September 03, 2006

It's one thirty in the morning and I must say, I am living life in the fast lane. What a beautiful day and a beautiful evening. Today I met up with a wonderful male friend of mine. Now mind you, I'm not one to have male friends, a lesson that I learned early in life. After attending an all girls school for many years, and then beginning college, I realized it's best to not have male friends. For me, my experience has always been that men will eventually make a move on you. It's best to just steer clear and besides, being a girlie girl naturally, I tend to bond with the females very well, except for the psycho, low achieving, nerdy ones. Being that I had a very jealous Italian boyfriend before even starting college, it was also the most respectful thing to do anyway. I know, I'm just the perfect girlfriend. So back to my friend, a friend I made not too long ago. He is just a plain, sweet guy, like a girlfriend. He is very wise and very thoughtful. I'm sure a typical man beast in his own way, but just sweet and respectful to me, which is all that matters. So he calls me bright and early and asks if I would like to hang out in the city with him today. So being a comfortable stay at home, stagnant fuck, remembering my promises, I agreed. I got all dressed up for him, felt good about myself, did my hair, and met with him on the lower east side. We had a ball. I loved being out, loved being with him. For lunch, we had Indian food. I had some great chicken tikka, rice and raita, he ordered a vegetarian dish which was out of this world. He is a professional chef, so when it comes to food and exchanging ideas, he's the one to entertain it. He doesn't come off as that 'I know it all" type, which makes him so easy to talk to. Being that I have turned over a new leaf, we sat and talked about writing a book together. We think it would be nice to write a book about how good Indian food is and the title should be "Why Indian food tastes so good." And how we laughed, we walked, we talked, we shopped, and we laughed some more. It was such a beautiful day. A beautiful day to enjoy with a nice male friend. A good male friend who has such a big heart. He listens to me and gives excellent advice. Today we continued to speak about the mysterious disappearance of my lover. He was just so supportive and so nurturing to me. He claims that my ex-lover was a total lying shit who met someone new to torture and that I should be happy that I'm rid of him. He also told me that for a man to not even discuss ending any type of friendship or relationship would show that a man is just not a nice person, he wasn't nice and considerate of me. So this made sense to me. I'm the type of person who is nice to everyone, there isn't anything I wouldn't do for anyone. I'm very laid back and nothing bothers me. I won't lie when I say I would hate to feel that someone would take advantage of my kind heart. I don't think kindness should be mistaken for weakness. But what could you do, there are just people out there that are so insensitive to the good hearted girls. So my friend, he knows exactly what type of person I am. We sat in the park for some time and he let me rest my head on his shoulder. He also told me that there was nothing wrong with me. He said its great to be well guarded and he also said something else that made me listen to his advice overall. He said that it's best to learn through wisdom and not through experience, the less learned through experience, the lesser the hurt in one's life. I think his words are precious. Here I am, feeling out of tune with the women of the world today, meaning that I do not sleep with 5 men in 5 nights, and then I hear this from my friend. He told me I was going to be just fine and that there is nothing wrong in the way I choose to live my life. AAAh....feels so good to be validated. Feels good to be with a man who is that deep, that inspirational, that compassionate. Need to find these qualities in my new lover. So tomorrow, I'm having a huge barbecue before everyone heads back to school. I've decided it would be nice to invite my male friend, as he's the only male in my life at the moment. He promised to help me make my famous potato salad and I think the closer we become, the luckier I'll be. Could this be the man I'm supposed to measure? Could this be the one i check to see if he's equal all around? Oh come on.....you know you do it with your girlfriends all the time...you know you measure each other just to see. I measure my right arm with the left to see if they're perfect, then I measure my right leg with the left, then my right ear with the left and so on..could he be the man I measure, I always felt that there would be only 1 man that I can ever measure in my life. So getting out and about all day, hanging in the city, and being with good comfortable company was fantastic, Laughing and giggling like a high school girl, something I will be certain to make a habit of. Love being spontaneous! Love to measure, but was a good girl. When measuring a man...well I'll say, YOU'LL JUST KNOW..he has to be that special one....if you find yourself measuring him, I would believe that he's THE ONE! Measuring is serious. Don't think I'm ready for seriousness, but it's nice to think of having someone to measure. Miss being in the company of a man. Love hearing there's nothing wrong with me! Appreciate my good friends, want a new lover with the sweet qualities of my friend, but not my friend, my friend is just my friend, and most of all, how I love the city!

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