Mothers

There is something about mothers that tears and tugs at everyone's heart. I don't know what it is...whether it's something that your moms going through or something that your friends mom is going through...all I know is that I'll never know what that's like, and that's fine. So my mom has to have a minor procedure done tomorrow and I can't help but feel bad for her...she is a nervous wreck deep down inside and still a scared little girl way deep down. Me, I'm so much stronger. I can't help but wish it was me instead, just to save her from having to feel the way she feels. She tries to be brave in front of everyone, 4 children and 5 grand babies later, but I know first hand, she's a chicken shit. Not in a bad way of course. I think everyone feels the same way about their moms. I just think it's horrible to watch someone grow old, someone to be pained, to suffer. I wonder if its all worth it. I wonder if its best to ignore all ailments or disease and just give up gracefully...I think this way about myself...with my mom or anyone else, I feel they must rectify the situation..but for myself..I wonder if I'd fight, I wonder if I believe i should...I wonder if I would tell anyone..now I'm no chicken...I can handle pain quite well...I just wonder what I would do..
So mother, I love you dearly, and I wish you didn't have to go through this tomorrow...be brave, little girl. We're all here for you......God Bless You Ma.....