Love and Lust

Wow, it's been quite a while. Never believed I would be this busy. So I have to admit I'm in love, in love badly, or is it lust? So it's the holiday season, too much love out there. Too many nice New Yorkers, something has to be wrong. Love is in the air. So I met a beautiful man. A tall, dark, mysterious man a few weeks ago. Sorry, but if you're under 6 ft, you might as well hang yourself now....there is nothing more beautiful than a tall man with such a hard body, such a big chest...such beauty..ahh. Between preparing for the holidays, entertaining my family, how did I find the time for him? This has to be the most amazing week of my year. The last few nights, arriving home in the wee hours of the morning...being with such a gentle yet strong man, an in control man, a man- man. I'm in ecstasy...full of lust, full of desire. I desire him, he desires me, he loves everything I love, he spends all day, all night with me..tonight he leaves me alone, with my thoughts, with warmth, with a break to focus on something other than him. How I miss him already, just counting the hours until we're together again. Am I in love or in lust? I don't know...what I do know is that this was a great Christmas for me, he was truly my gift...a good New Year is about to begin...how can a man be so much...how is he so perfect...so attentive, so giving, so nurturing...it's time to fuck the destination and enjoy the journey...thank you Darling for coming into my life at a time that I needed you so....I enjoy you tremendously...and if its love...eh...I think I'll panic....if it's lust....eh...it's lust....lust is fun, not a bad thing...thank you darling for loving me like this....